I’ll be honest, the reality of being alone for 3 months… traveling in foreign speaking countries while still having to work at an intensely stressful, full time job has set in. Part of the reason I choose to embark on this journey was to challenge myself outside of my comfort zone, to live life in the moment instead of according to my plans. But then I got to Europe, with no plans past my arrival in Germany and my departure from London and started to realize how much that actually terrifies me. I am grateful that my first stop in Europe is with someone I know who has been an amazing host and made me feel truly at home. I’ve started to do research on the next stops – how to get there and where to stay. It’s overwhelming to say the least. I also underestimated how expensive travel and hostels would be, especially considering I need to ensure that I will have a WiFi connection for work. I just need to breathe. When I started this journey, I had to tell myself, that whatever I see and experience will be enough. But now that I have arrived, it’s hard to remember that. I don’t know if I’ll ever afford to be back here and I want to make the most of every moment. But doing so while working 8 hours a day is both mentally and physically exhausting.
Dreaming my reality, creating my destiny 
Luckily, you are young, smart and in the best physical shape of your life. Take each day at a time. Breathing is good. Also reach out to your friends and talk with them, that will calm you down. Stay focused and you’ll be the better for it. I love you. Margie
I can still remember Exactly where I was sitting and what I was looking at when I felt that same panic creeping in at the start of my travels. I also remember saying to myself “If I think about what I am doing, I’m going to panic” (and probably burst into tears in public) So I refused to let myself think about the magnitude and the emotion and allowed for a “just do it” survival-like mentality. You need to find a place with internet, then that’s what you do. It begins to become instinctual and comforting knowing its “that simple” and you’ll find yourself even more able soak up all the amazing aspects, emotions, and experiences of traveling. You got this. 🙂
It really is that simple. I was able to take that breath and get back into it. I am ready!